Here Come the Holiday BLAHS!

The holidays are upon us folks and as usual this mother camper is not even the least bit ready!

Despite living in a camper for years now, I have never actually decorated or put a tree up in our tiny space. The thought of making this small space even more crowded just gives me anxiety. We usually spend our holidays with my in-laws and I have been perfectly content with it until now.

We have always made it a point to travel back to my husbands parents to spend our Christmas, this year may be different. We are over a thousand miles away from his parents home and have NO desire to make that drive this year. Both of my parents have passed so changing it up and taking the family to one of my parents just is not in the cards anymore.

We own a 38 ft fifth wheel we have renovated to fit our specific family needs, and although its new to us, shes still an older camper and space is super limited. I am constantly purging items (mostly kids junk) turning my table every which way and trying to keep the place clean to give my home on wheels a spacious feel.

This year has been tough for all of us, 2020 has not been nice to anyone but, here we are entering the final months so we ought to make the best of it RIGHT?!

I wouldn’t totally say I am a going to go full blown Christmas throw up on every inch of my camper but, I think my little family deserve a cheerful holiday season and DAMN IT, I deserve it too!! This is our home, this is where we share our most personal and intimate times of our lives, this is where I want to share our Christmas joys as well!

WE ARE ALL WE GOT!!

Your little family is the most important item on your Christmas list every year so make sure you make it WORTH IT!

Lets make the end of 2020 not only memorable for the chaotic wild roller coaster of hell its been but, make it worth looking back and enjoying how we made the best of it!

So, put a tree up mama! Whether its a car tree air freshener hung up on the wall by a tack or a Charlie Browns Christmas tree on a table in the corner, just bring some joy to your tiny space! Hell, we all deserve it.

Christmas 2020, all I’m asking is you come in easy, treat us well, and let us take one happy joyful moment of this year with us into 2021.

-FullTimeMother-Camper

Top Three Personal Growth MUSTS for Better Mental Health

See, I’ve had a very “blah” last couple of days. I get this way often. But something was so different about the last three weeks that my mind had suddenly felt a little calmer..maybe even a peaceful place to be for now.

Today though, it was not one of the “good” days. My anxiety and negative thoughts got the best of me. I didn’t want to continue this writing or trying my hand at this blog thing at all. I told myself I was a failure and I’m not good at anything.

Today I don’t have a wild RV adventure to share with you. I spent my day pulling myself out of my funk by reminding myself how far I have come and why. So I decided to share what I wrote down in my notes folder in my phone that has helped me grow as a stronger person, mother and wife. Like I said it’s been one Hell of a ride.

  • Keep your personal and relationship issues to yourself. Unless you’re having a heart to heart with your best friend..never allow someone else to gossip about your hardships. When people have nothing better to do, they tend to gossip about your screw ups and mishaps. Don’t let it happen. Even when you’re doing well..keep pushing and celebrate with those who know you best. I’m a definite over sharer and this has probably been one of the most important things I’ve had to learn!
  • Save YOURSELF. Being alone with yourself and thoughts for a long period of time..you get tired of your own damn self. There is no one else in the world that is going to make things better for you BUT YOU!!! You have to make the better choices for yourself and find out who you really are and everything that is not you..you have to let go! This has been 100% the most important for me. Over the course of this pandemic I have learned to be alone and heal MYSELF on my own. Although it’s been a tough lonely road..I can finally say I do NOT feel guilty for the choices I make for myself NOW more now than I ever have..and I haven’t felt that way in a very LONG time.
  • Love those who love you and be present. This has taken me more time than to understand..I have commitment issues and still do. Not only with relationships but with future commitments and goals as well. Somehow I always make up scenarios in my mind as to why things that are seemingly going well..will never work out. Im working on be more present and enjoying what I have in front of me. (I do this thing really well where I just self sabotage everything!😩) This life is short..we don’t get a do-over!!! Take care of yourself for fuck sakes and enjoy the little things that are happening today because tomorrow just isn’t promised.

I’m not sure how many people will actually get to see this post, but if I can dig myself out of a dark hell anyone can!

As I sat in the park today with my kiddos enjoying the Mountain View’s I had to remind myself how very lucky I am to be their mother and I HAVE to be present for them.

Reading something positive each has really helped me in my personal growth. No, I am not just saying that…it truly has helped me become better and stay on the right path. I actually came across a book on amazon for a “Year of Positive Thinking” and thought it might be perfect for anyone who might need that extra push each day!

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No “Normal”

For the full time camper travelling mom who has a mental breakdown at least three times a week…it’s going to be okay. Just breath and know you are doing your best.

But, lets be real.

Sometimes its not.

This lifestyle is not for the faint of heart, especially for us Empaths and very emotional mommas with one or more kids. Let’s not forget to mention the HUGE black cloud of “what if’s” from Covid and the constant worry of what is going to happen next?!

It is always the same battles we’re fighting each time we move to a new RV park.

  • Are we always going to home school or should we switch from school to school?
  • Wanting a real home for our kids with their own personal room space.
  • A “normal” life. (Trust me, there is no such thing.)
  • Is this way of life even right for my children?

Trust me, I have thought about the last one more than ANYTHING.

Despite all of the “what ifs” and heavy anxiety decisions here we are! Still trekking and travelling on. And do you know what the beauty of it is? We have experienced A LOT of “firsts” together as a family. The amount of breathtaking views and countless adventures we have been on together outweigh ANY anxiety I have had about my decision any day.

Making the decision to go full time on the road with my family has never come easy for me. (Surprise, surprise!) It has had its fair share of ups and downs. HEAVY on the downs. (That is a whole story in its own!)

I have never been one to share my feelings or allow anyone to shame the way I raise my children, but I want other mothers in a similar situation to know there ARE more of us!